Me & mum in the bus

Managed to get one 3-star hotel near the church. Don't like it at all. As usual, it's like a resort-style hotel. I hated this kind of hotel. But I guess the price was reasonable enough. Cost only RM$108 per night, inclusive of 2 breakfast.

Then we went in search of food. I told my parents that I wanted to try the chicken rice balls. So we went to this chain called Famosa. Not exactly nice. Later we found out that theirs is relatively bad as compared to the rest. I guess having chains of restaurants meant quality of food is compromised, just like all the other eateries in Spore.


Then we went to Christ Church Melaka & sightsee for a while. Malacca is really lousy with no attractions nor shops. Argh~

Back at the hotel, it was decided that it's pointless to stay here. Hence we shorten our stay here & decided to embark to Muar the next day.

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Visited the various museums & also St Paul's church. Nothing much left but I can see a mentally constructed image of the church in its glorious years.

Another 2 hour journey to Muar. I expected the place to be even worse off but surprisingly, I found the place rather nice. We got ourselves checked into a 4-star hotel & even had a hearty dinner at the roadside stalls. Food was great. Hawker food is still the best!!!

On our way home

Hi peeps, just came back from my trip to Malaysia. Went to Malacca which was super boring & moved to Muar a day later. Will updated on it again wif pics.

Read his blog. He said he's gonna delete his blog soon. I dunno why I still can't let go. Maybe I now understand why Alicia was so mad at Eric who was able to get on with life 10 months after they broke up. I mean I was thinking to myself then that both she & him should move up, so there's no point in her getting all worked up. Well I guess I'm feeling exactly how she did the last time.

Anyway I think he's over with the entire affair already. He's even dating casually now. I wish I can be like that too. Well maybe after I start work, I'll forget about him and can start life anew. But in the meantime, I just have to have more sleepless nights. Bless me~

By some godsend powers, I managed to on my laptop for the 2nd time today. Guess wat peeps? I've gotta a job already! And the more amazing thing is I'm gonna work in a geomancy consulting firm. Of course, I'm not going to look at the feng shui for you, I'm doing the office thingy. I'm not exactly sure if I really like that job but I've signed the appointment letter. So what the heck. I'm just gonna do the job first. One challenge though, they write alot of stuff in Chinese. Being extremely Chinese-challenged, I hope I can do it. I mean considering I got A2s for my 'O's and 'A's, I think I would be able to manage, or wouldn't I? Anyway the pay is better than in Shang. I'm starting on Tuesday, so I guess I'll go back to Shang on Mon to do my clearance. I need the money to get a new laptop.

Going to Malacca tomorrow with my folks. Malaysia having their version of Great Singapore Sale. Wow, I can't wait. Gonna get my dad to buy me lots and lots of clothes, including some office attire. Bon voyage~

Oh and I didn't managed to get my book. Guess that book is too old. Will keep looking though.:p

I actually had a post in Chinese entirely but cos my comp died on me whilst typing it, the entire post was gone. Typing in Chinese is no mean feat, hence I'm just gonna type in English.
For the past 2 days, I wasn't able to access my laptop. I felt so helpless but today by some miraculous force, the laptop managed to work. So I better start sending my resume before the thing died again.
Went to the hospital yesterday. Waited for two hours before the doctor decided to see us. I was so pissed cos he basically went missing for 1 hour. Wtf, just cos he is a doctor & earn big bucks, I think he should have some professionalism.
Would be going to Melaka tomorrow with my parents. Since they're not working for some time, we might as well go out for a breather.
Just finished a book by one of my fav. celeb - Dee Hsu. Definitely worth the read. Gonna get the earlier book she has - 《牙套日记》.

《小S之怀孕日记》

Since the IR has been approved, the underworld is looking for recruits.We are now seeking members to fulfill a tender for the casino. Please fill in the application form below and mail to:
Mr. Chao Ah Heng
Membership Officer
Chap Sar Tiam Pte Ltd
69 Geylang Lorong 69
Singapore 216971

APPLICATION FOR MEMBERSHIP
1. NRIC No.: _________________
2. Surname: __________________
3. First name: (please X)
[ ] Johnson
[ ] Benson
[ ] Samson
[ ] Hamson
[ ] Janson
[ ] Other: _________________ (if not ending in -son? please explain why)
4. Chinese Name: Ah __________(if not beginning with Ah? please explain why)
5. Age:
[ ] Under 35
[ ] Lau Beng
6. Sex:
[ ] M
[ ] F
[ ] at Geylang
7. Length of Last Fingernail: ________ (cm)
8. Ability to squat for:
[ ] 1 hour
[ ] 2 hours
[ ]more than 2 hours (wah, steady!)
9. Hairstyle:
[ ] Spiky
[ ] Dyed with streaks of blond
[ ] Dyed with streaks of red
[ ] Two strands dangling in front of eyes
[ ] Kana mop like that
[ ] Perm (please state which saloon in JB you went)____________________
10. Tattoo of:
[ ] Tiger
[ ] Dragon
[ ] Snake
[ ] Eagle
11. Work experience: (please X all that apply)
[ ] KTV Lounge Bouncer
[ ] Snooker Hall Attendant
[ ] Unlicensed Contractor
[ ] Freelance debt collector
[ ] Unlicensed bookie
[ ] Dispute Resolution and Settlement Professional
[ ] Unemployed
12. Spouse's Name: _________________________
2nd Spouse's Name: _________________________
3rd Spouse's Name: (the one in Batam, that one)________________________
Lover's Name: _________________________
2nd Lover's Name: (Lorong 69, that pooi-pooi one)_________________________
13. Number of children living in household: ____
Number of children living in foster care: ____
Number of children that are actually yours: ____
14. Mother's Name: _________________________ (If not sure, leave blank)
15. Father's Name: _________________________ (If not sure, leave blank)
16. Education: (Circle how many years it took you to finish primary school)8 9 10 11 12
17. Ability to swear: (please X all that apply)
[ ] Hokkien
[ ] English
[ ] Malay
[ ] Tamil
[ ] Cantonese
[ ] rude hand gestures
18. Service performed in previous secret society:
[ ] Leadership/Tua Tao
[ ] Junior management/Suay Tao
[ ] Physical activities/Hooting
[ ] Dispute Resolution and settlement/Cham Siong
[ ] Lookout/Kuah Chui

Went to Mediacorp today to do the quiz. It was damn hard. I totally dunno how to do it. Who is Ehud Omert & Zarcarias Moussaoui? And what about the Mount Merapi and Yasukuni Shrine? I'm totally a klutz when it comes to current affairs. Life sucks, the last min revision doesn't help at all. The quiz was for April. C'mon now is already July. It's already old news & not new news. Well I guess I'm just not suitable for the job. I failed the same type of interview they conducted for Mass Com the other time. I totally dunno what is going on in the world. I'm clueless.

My mum sort of chided me for wanting to go Hong Kong and asked me to go Malacca with her. Well I'm at a lost. Firstly we can't get anything for our supposed HK trip and the date is drawing nearer & nearer. Also, if I were to not go, Ratna would have taken her leave for naught. Sigh, why is it so hard to decide? She dun wanna go Malacca also.

Somehow there's a void in my heart. As much as I hate him, he's left a emptyness inside me. I just need time to recover and let the wound heal, scab take over.

Interviews suck. Or maybe it's me who sucked at interviews! I've always not know what to say during these 15 mins worth of gruelling session. I hate it when they ask "What do you see yourself doing in 5 years' time?". I mean if I can have it my way, I see myself as a rich and successful woman who gets to travel around the world, earns millions but do not have to work. But can I say that to them? Abso-fucking-lutely not! (courtesy of Mr Big from Sex & the City)

I was stumped, unsure of what to say & just keeping my fingers crossed in hope that they'll be kind enough to overlook this major flaw. Nonetheless, I just hope of getting a job soon. I'm going broke in a month's time should I still be jobless.

The Japan Exchange & Teaching programme will only be launched in Sept, or so I heard. So I guess no hopes of that yet.

Anyway I'll be going to Hong Kong soon. Yesh, after so many years of saying that I'll go, I'm finally going. The big day will be next week, together with Ratna-my ex colleague in Shang. Well I dun have a choice now that she's already taken leave. The next step is finding a cheap package so that we can splurge some HK dollars. Heard it's sale there now. Well having to miss the Great Singapore Sale, the Great HK Sale doesn't sound too bad. 买东西，吃东西！Here I come~

On another note, this is to my ex. N-O, NO! I'll never forgive you ever! I gave you the ultimatum to come and apologize but you gave it up. I stooped so low but you didn't cherish that chance. You gave me up first, not the other way round. I've already deleted you from my phone & hopefully that would meant I've gotten rid of you for life. I'm taking my time but I'll be there some time. So my answer to your sms is NO.

Okay I finally relent. I admit that I can't get over my last guy. I was in constant denial but I gave up. I'm done. I know that he's no longer mine. He's no longer bothered to put on the front that he used to when we first started. He can't be bothered to do things for me anymore. I can't get him on the phone whenever I called. He only responds when he feels like it. He tells me one thing but does another. The final straw was today. He claimed that he'll keep me company but he just left me alone. I'm done with it & him. I can't take it anymore! I need a new life.

Lim Junsheng, I hate you! I wish you have a wonderful life with all the bitches you've slept with!

Had a fantastic dinner last night. There was chilli crab!!! 2nd aunt won 4D & toto twice in a row, hence extra food. The crabs were nice but I guess they were not exactly that fresh. Unlike the ones I ate at a coffeeshop last time where the meat just glided out of the shell, these crustaceans' meat stay firmly stuck. But of course, with effort, you can still get the snowy-white flesh out.

And talking about seafood, 3rd aunt is bugging us again to go Si Wan Island again. I'm not exactly keen on going cos the last trip wasn't anything memorable. The island was extremely hot & all we do is go to fruit farms. Shopping was restricted to only tidbits & local delights. Not exactly something fun. But at her insistence, the trip will be next Sunday. Shumei wants me to go. I guess that's because she dun wanna be bored to death over there. Oh and btw, she's joined me to be an official loafer! As for the trip, I'll think about it. I guess the only attraction would be the cheap seafood should I be persuaded to go.

有一个恶魔，他有很多钱，也有很多女人，可是他还是不满意。他想要登峰造极，所以，他想要控制人类。

他想要用一种最美丽的伎俩控制人类；他想要用高明的手法让人们掉入陷阱后还不断感谢他。他想了很久，终于想到了一个方法。

他麻痹人们最聪明的部分，然后再使用人们最愚昧的部分—他麻痹了人脑，再使用了人的双眼。人脑停止了思考；双眼开始相信它看到的表象，加以严格的挑剔。大家开始对自己眼睛看到的东西不满，然后用各种千奇百怪的方法来试图改变；人们开始沉迷在如何让自己的罩杯升级、曲线玲珑，如何让自己皮肤更白、鼻子更挺。一开始，大家只涂涂抹抹，然后她们用金属棒插进自己的肚子，脸上打了好几针，腋下植入脐带，更用电锯磨自己的骨头。

人们排斥美食，开始吃得像只鸽子；各种颜色的药丸每天吞一大堆。有些人还是吃，但是吃完后会去厕所一五一十地挖吐出来。只要能瘦，身边一定有一群母火鸡发出“咕—咕—噜”的赞叹声。天使飞过，惊讶地问：“为什么人们不思考？为什么他们认为这就叫做快乐？”恶魔哈哈地笑了：“因为他们不再使用闹，他们愚昧的双眼主宰了一切。”

恶魔撒下一大堆药，人们跪拜着、感谢着；微笑地躺下，并且相信，这就是美丽的人生。

Just came back from my run. I'm still very lousy @ running by it's definitely improving by the day. I'm feeling much better now. Maybe cos' the truth has sunken in or maybe I'm accepting the fact now. I know I can't do anything to change anything.

Had a long chat with my aunt too. Talked about relationships & marriage. I think we're sorta the same. After being through so much, we all gave up on marriage. Relationships can come but marriage is probably unnecessary now. I guess now I dun wanna be a tai-tai anymore, I just wanna be a rich spinster...

I hate myself. I can't believe that I got myself humiliated. I'm sooo stupid. I've woke up. I know what happen now. I mean I did previously but I"ve always choose to believe what I see & feel. But now I know. I was wrong. It's over, totally over. I need to start afresh. Totally afresh. I need to start seeing with my head & no longer with my heart. You've hurt me & you know who you are. I hate myself & I hate you!!!

I applaud myself. I managed to watch the entire football game this morning! It was a total of 120 mins excluding penalty shoots. Eventually Italy won the World Cup. I was actually rooting for France though & for the first time in my entire, I placed a bet with the legalised bookie, Singapore Pools. Well I lost the bet cos at the end of 90 mins, it was a draw. There goes my hope of winning something.
Anyway I think I impressed myself for being able to watch the entire game even though it doesn't really help now that I'm practically having insomnia every night. The only footballer I've heard of was Zidane but he was sent off at around the 115th min for butting another with his head. The most idiots were the commentators who kept harping on the fact that it was his last game & this is the most disgraceful way of ending his international performace WTF, the guy was just overwhelmed by emotions that the other guy put his arm across his chest, trying to stop Zidane from getting the ball. What's wrong with that 2 commentators?
And I really think that football is a rough sport. I see the footballers trying to trip one another or cause injury to the opponents. Hey, people, show some sportsmanship.

I've been thinking a lot about him recently. How he'll always cuddle me and hold me close to his heart. It didn't help also that last night it was raining. He knows I'm a scaredy cat & he'll always assure me that he'll always be there to protect me. But last night, he wasn't there. But I mean, who can I blame? I was the one who initiated the breakup. I just have to learn to live alone.

Probably meet Sy & her friends for a movie later. They're gonna watch "Just My Luck". Actually I do wanna watch that show but I dun really clicked that well with her friends especially when I was left to take a cab home alone that Saturday night all the way from Serangoon. WTF, I mean they have cars for Christ's sake! Someone could have offered a ride. Well I reckon I'm probably not the type of girls they're interested in, hence they might as well spend more efforts on those type of girls. Everybody automatically assumes I can take care of myself & people around me. I guess that's the prob with me. I may appear strong but I'm not...

今天凑巧经过和你相遇的餐厅，想起那时你热切的眼神和轻轻的拥抱。当我的脚，踏上我们相拥而立的那方水泥地，我的全身都要烈开了。你感觉到了吗？朋友兴奋地说要坐下来吃点东西，我找了个烂理由，落荒而逃。我想打电话给你。
这并不公平，为什么经过餐厅的人是我？你已经开始忘记我，而我却如此想念你。

An extract from the book. A sad but true scenario.

Omigosh, I went over to my mum's today & when I reach, this group of old uncles were staring at me, as if by staring hard enough, my clothes would be ripped apart. Super gross. I can't stand all these old uncles who sit in coffeeshops everything day, ogling at girls. These dirty old fellows. I'm big enough to be their daughter, and maybe even grand-daughter! Chi Ko Pek!!!

Then the next stall auntie said that I looked very chubby. Sigh, I really need to lose some weight. The whole world is saying I'm fat!!! I'm becoming like a pig. For someone who had been skinny almost all her life, this is life-toturing!

Ate prawn mee today. The soup's fantastic! It's been extremely long since I ate there. The soup is sweet without any tinge of MSG, and that's true. Really no MSG!!!

T.H.E. W.H.O.

Who is in the house with you?* parents & 2nd bro
Who was the last person to sms you?*
Who are you thinking about now?* kelvin
Who did you last talk to on the phone?*
Who's house did you last go to?* my gram's
Who are your best friends?*
Who is (was) your favorite teacher?* Mrs Chay
Who's birthday is next?*
Who was the last person you told you love them?* i smsed my mum that i loved her & would support her in whatever
Who do you wish you were with right now?* with my JI frens back in 1999
Who's your favorite relative?* small fish

T.H.E. W.H.E.R.E.S.

Where do (did) you go to school?* last one was NUS
Where do you live?* cck
Where is your phone?* in front of me
Where are your parents?* in the master bedroom
Where do you sleep?* my own room
Where do you shop the most?* far east
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?* giordano
Where did you last take a car ride to?* interview
Where in your house are you?* hall

T.H.E W.H.A.T.

What was the last thing you ate?* sour gummy
What was the last thing you drank?* milk. plain
What color pants are you wearing?* red
What kind of cell phone do you have?* ok wap 267, it's a Taiwan brand, limited edition-Hello Kitty
What is the closest item near you that is red?* the bottom i'm donning now
What are you wearing on your feet?* nothing
What instant messaging service do you use?* msn
What is your favorite colors?* pink & white
What is your screen name?* sharon_hui
What is your most used away message?* none
What is your shoe brand?* well i buy shoes eveywhere & anywhere but i do hope i can afford manolo blahniks soon
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?* jeans
What is the last movie watched?* scary movie 4
What song do you currently hear?* anything my hifi captures on the radio waves

T.H.E. W.H.E.N.S.

When did you start school?* 5
When did you meet your best friend?* in jc
When is your birthday?* 30 mar
When did you last go to the mall?* last sat
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?* in mar
When did you last burn a candle?* last sat, the candles on my mum's birthday cake
When were you last at school?* 2004
When did you last see your dad?* 2 hrs ago
When did you last take a shower?* last night @ abt the same time as now

Okie I admit. My life's messed up. Which 24-year-old would be in such a fix?

I hate China crows. Why do the study mamas have to resort to selling their bodies? Don't they have any shame. I mean they have children & a husband at home, so why need to live off men? Working in a factory may not pay well but at least that's not degrading yourself. I hate all the men who hurt their wives & family by having these crows!!!