雪人の宅

Once again, I'm confused. I just received his email and his big plan for proposal. Something that I really yearn for since we were in our varsity days. Somehow everything seems so unreal now. Things did go according to plan. We were supposed to get married when he's 28. It's been brought forward by a year even. However, things are no longer the same anymore. Everything changed when I made that fatal decision. I can't really say I regret it but there's definitely tinges of "what would have happened if I didn't..." feelings.

When I left No. 3, I thought we would get back together. In fact everyone around me thought that way. Things changed though. There was the inclusion of someone new in the equation. M was there to take care of him in his darkest days. I wanted him to be happy. Even after he broke up with M, things couldn't go back to how it was in the past. It seemed as if we had reached another paradigm.

Things dragged on. Both of us became weary. None of us can keep up with the increased need to 付出. I guess that's when the weak bond between us crumbled totally. I know we can't be together anymore. I sincerely hope for the best for him. Persevere on, I know you will definitely find your own happiness~