Went for my round 2 interview on Friday morning. Didn't feel that the interviewers were too impressed with the marketing plan that I did, but they did ask if there is any way to shorten my notice period. They mentioned that they will get back in a couple of days, so I guessed the chances are 50-50, but around 5pm, I got a call from the HR to say that they would like to offer me the job. But they've decided to offer me a pay that is worse off (if you consider the extra "benefits" I get in Triumph), so I politely declined though I thought any job offer should be enough for me to wanna get out. So he called back again and said the boss could offer me a slightly higher package (still not any better from what I'm getting now) and I will not be entitled for any adjustment till next year. So I told him I would like to consider about it, and will give him an answer by end of the day. After consulting some of my friends, I've decided to accept the offer since it's definitely better than staying in a company that doesn't even appreciate me. However, I emailed him 2 mins after the company's official work hours. So technically I've accepted the offer, hope this is a correct step. Fingers crossed!
At night, I went KTV-ing with Fabian and Freddy. I decided to jio YP along so that he becomes more involved in my life. Unsure about whether he is really busy with work or just simply uninterested, he spent the first hour texting away, making phonecalls & playing his mobile games. I got a little pissed because you could have gone for your own programmes if you were that uninterested in a KTV session. I asked you along because I wanted to include you in my life, but you were just bo chup. It became slightly better later into the session, but both Fabian & Freddy could tell that there were almost zero interaction between us, and that he doesn't wanna be close to me. Sigh~
Saturday is now becoming home alone day for me since YP is now on a 6-day work job. So did some household chores before getting ready in the late afternoon to meet Amber for dinner. As I've started to take public these days, I automatically headed to the MRT station to take the train. As usual, the walk from my house to the station took a while and I started to break out into a sweat and my skin started to show redness, which already had become something quite normal to me. Things were fine and I was kinda slightly early but as I was waiting for the transfer train to Bishan, I felt nauseous and dizzy. I wanted to rest for a bit but since Bishan is just 3 stations away, I decided to brave the ride and stepped into the train nonetheless. But things took a turn for the worse, and I really couldn't breather. I alighted at the next station and rest for at least 10 mins before I proceeded to take the next train. Unfortunately things didn't get better and I had to alight at the next stop to breathe and sit down as well. Another 10 mins or so passed, and I decided to continue my journey. Thankfully Bishan was the next stop and I rushed to the pharmacy to get some antihistamine. The pharmacist was shocked by the fact that my entire neck was red and she told me to quickly swallow 1 pill after I'm done with payment. While waiting in the queue to pay, I couldn't take it so I told the cashier that I needed to drink water and passed my credit card to him, though there was still a customer in front of him. After I'm done with payment, things didn't get better and I doubted my ability to walk to the restaurant we were supposed to meet, so I picked a corner and sat there (extremely unglam) for a bit for my body to feel better before I walked over. It was a rather scary experience and all I could think of is what if I had died or collapsed now? What will happen? Thankfully Amber was already seated inside the restaurant and I could just go in and rest and regain my energy.
So the dinner conversation was interesting with her sharing about her new job and my offer. Then it went on to what was happening in my life and hers. Similar to me, she's experiencing that her marriage is not working out and is contemplating an end to it. Well she's probably been thinking for quite some time since this is not the first time I'm hearing this from her. But something different this time is there is a someone "new" in her life. With that as a driver, the decision was definitely more determined. So she met up with her friends when she visited China recently and came into close contact with her 青梅竹马, who is married and started to make regular contact with her. She became infatuated with him after knowing that he is still carrying a torch for her after so many years. But she's feeling very lost and upset that she wants to be with him, but both parties will not relocate for each other. And of course, there is also the constraints of marriage for both. These were seriously affecting her and it kinda reminded me of myself a couple of weeks back. I discourage her from falling in further cos typically there won't be happy endings unlike fairytales. But to see her investing so much interest and feelings into this, to the fact that she actually wished for him to get a divorce and to have a kid with him, I knew she's in too deep. As much as I think she would get hurt in the end, I still encourage her to fight for what she wants.
Yes I'm probably not the most moral or ethical person around, but life is too short to be living with regrets. Just like the fact that I'm not contented with my current life and I wanted more out of it, I think everyone should do that too! Don't wait till your last breathe to think about all the "what if's". And since she's very clear about what she wants, she should definitely go for it. I'll be rooting for you my dear friend. As for me, I'm still vague about my future and hence it's a lot harder for me to determine my next steps.
Sunday was the Qing Ming for my maternal family. My mum told me that my aunty will go and fetch her and I was like, ok. Then she went on to say maybe my elder brother might wanna come along if I were to fetch them. So I told her to check with my brother and get back to me. Tried calling both my mum and dad to get the confirmation but both didn't pick up the phone. So I texted my brother to check if he's going. He replied that he's sick and will pass. So that being said, I thought that my mum will go with my aunty, so I told Fabian that I could fetch him since we are heading to the same place. Then after picking him up, my mum called and asked me why I didn't go and fetch her. Omigod, total communication breakdown sia. In the end, I had to detour to Woodlands to pick her again before proceeding.
Anyway I got to pay my respect to dearest grandma whom I was super close to. She brought me up when my parents had to work when I was young. Had a extremely good time meeting relatives that I hardly see. Till next weekend~
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