Sigh, 不知不觉我在这公司已经呆了7个月了。不知是不是好事，我虽然不讨厌来上班，但我对公司的某些政策非常不满。Also I think that the company doesn't appreciate people for the efforts and amounts of work & time they've put in. 我相信公司需要赏罚分明，但我的公司却只看得到大家的缺点，而优点却常常被忽视。再这样下去，我一定会离开。I mean, I'm practically being scolded every week at BD meeting. What point is there to hold on. If you dun appreciate your stuff, that simply implies that you dun need them around. Thus why should your employee continue to slog for you.

Gerlin is coming back and hence, I assume that things will soon change. She's bound to leave within six months and afterwhich I totally see no point in staying in this company even though there's still SzeHui around.

SUNDAY

Woken up by a phone call. 小姨 asked if I wanna go to my distant uncle's wedding. I'm so shagged after last night that I didn't think I can survive but on the account that I haven't seen the bride, I though okay.

Washed up and set off the the northeastern side of the world-Punggol. Place was crowded. This is so different from that of Eric's house yesterday. Place is small yet crowded. His was big yet very few people were there.

Ate and slacked till about 1.30pm before the couple came back. Well bride wasn't pretty. The bridal shots were better. Did all the tea ceremony and stuff and wanted to jio people to play mahjong. Didn't get enought khakis, so went home. Slacked and watch TV and mum made me go the wedding with her and bro. Was a bit reluctant cos I'm physically very drained. Went along anyway. Food was okay, service sucks!

Conclusion: Hotels have better service but worse food. Restaurants have passable food but service staff was extremely rude. They should start employing younger staff. The aunties there looked like they've not been shagged for a year!

Busy busy weekend~ attended 2 weddings.

Saturday was the wedding of one of my good friend, Sylvia. At the tender age of 21, she got married. It's pretty unbelievable right? Also it seemed pretty common that nowadays people get hitched in clubs. Usually I dun believe that these couples last, but there are at least 2 such couples who got married in my life. Amazing but true..

I was one of the 姐妹 and had to wake up super early that morning to go to Sylvia's house. And I was pretty much quite excited cos' that's my first time doing it. (yes, I know at my age, if it's the first, it's weird) Thankfully her house is not exactly that far. Reached there and the place is bustling with activities. Laurel, the girl that I met before the wedding, was already in full action. Sigh, I felt so weird.
Thankfully things started to get busy and the guys arrived pretty much on time. They came up and we did the regular haggling of prices for the key to open the door. Finally settled for $238 + $70 for the games. Gin, one of the relatives who was also the 姐妹 came up with the idea of hiding the key in a huge block of ice. Hence, to open the door, the brothers have to thaw the ice to retrieve the key and the rule is that they can't break the ice. So they tried all sorts of ways like rubbing the block with hands and what not. It was comical.

Anyway the girls then left them to continue their task, thinking that if they can't get the key within 10 minutes, then we'll just give them the spare key. Suddenly a surge of commotion and the guys managed to get the key. One smart alec managed to think of buying hot water from the coffeeshop below to thaw the ice. Not too bad huh?

Eric then had to serenade Sy with songs from this Taiwanese guy who is famous for his romantic ballads. Funny thing is nobody except probably me, Eric, Sy and Willie (one of the brothers) heard of this singer. I mean they're so ang moh that they have absolutely no idea of Chinese singers. Whispers of 'Who is that?' can be heard coming from both the brothers and sisters. I mean do they live in this world?

Anyway the groom finally gets to see his bride. The whole entourage then proceeded to Eric's house and Laurel and I were assigned to be in the car of Desmond, one of Eric's brother and the one that Sy has been telling me all about.

When we arrived, the group started to marvel at Eric's house. Feels a bit funny cos' even though I was astonished at the size of that giant house, it's weird to hear people talking about it. Yup, indeed the house looked much bigger in the day time as compared to the time when I came to play mahjong at night. Nice house, branded furniture, lucky Sylvia.

Did the tea ceremony and waited for the time to pass before heading back to Sy's house. House was overcrowded with people. Laurel and I headed straight to the room and rested. Couple did the tea ceremony and cos Desmond and Willie were waiting for us to fetch us home, we went off before the end of the ceremony.

Reached home and felt so awake. Persuaded myself to sleep because of the evening dinner. Slept for an hour before waking up to watch TV. Then finally pull myself out of the house to do my hair. Did a Victorian hairdo and went to the dinner. Reached at around 7+ cos had a hard time finding a parking slot. Seated myself next to Laurel at the reception, hoping to make myself useful. It's pretty weird that I dunno anyone from this wedding but yet I'm one of the sisters. Anyway helped out and dinner served around 8.30pm.

Entire thing ended around 11.30pm. Disappointing that there wasn't any sabotage from anyone. Was so tired at the end of the day and the makeup totally melted. Was feeling a bit disgusted with myself. Thankfully someone drove me home and I didn't had to scare anyone with the melted makeup.

Sleep......

Woah, this is the first time I won so much at mahjong! I won $35! I know to some people, that's very little but because I always play very small (only 20cents per tai), it's considered very good for me. Also, usually I'm not so lucky in mahjong though I'm a fanatic.
Actually the amount could be more but I miscalculated and so I'm shortchanged of another $6.40, but never mind lah. I'm still elated!!!

More sessions from now on when there's a mahjong table at my granny's place now! Yeah~

I love myself. I'm narcissist. I know that and I'm not afraid to admit to that. I know that one day, I might even end up like Narcissus who ends up dead because of his love for himself. Yes, 我承认我非常自恋！ Someone commented that I love myself more than anything in this world and would never ever do anything to hurt or harm myself. I guess to a certain extent, that's true. I've heard of people who actually abuse themselves. How can anyone bear to do anything like that to themselves? I, for one wouldn't. I love myself too much to do such a thing. I love being alive. I love being able to do things that every healthy individual can do. I love Sharon!

But I'm not obsessed with myself, that's for sure. I go to the extent of ensuring that every strand of my hair is in place and every inch of my skin is in perfect condition. And being the clusmy girl that I am, I allow myself to have bruises all the time. I love myself and my body and will sometimes also get myself worked up over insecurities. I'm just human. My body is not perfect. My face is not perfect. My hair is not perfect.
There're bound to be many women who are a lot more prettier than I am. But I still love myself. Even with the extra cellulite in my thighs and arms, the large breathing pores on my face, the disgusting bruised fourth toes and the occassional breakouts, I still love myself. I love myself for who I am. I want to enjoy my life to the fullest! Yes call me Narcissus Poh.

P/S: Anyone knows where I can inject 美白针？

Really had a super fucked up day. Started the day feeling a bit cranky and giddy. Hence took a bus to Yew Tee MRT thinking that I dun have enough cash to pay for the taxi. Drew money and realised that I did have enough and to discover that I'm only left with 200 bucks! Feeling miserably poor.
Anywayz then I called for a cab at 8.15 thinking that I'll arrive office pretty early today. Ended up the stupid idiotic driver didn't turn up! I called the company back and then they say that the idiotic driver is not responding to their call. Managed to get me another cab at the eleventh hour but that was already 8.50! I was freaking mad!!!

Cab drivers should be take a bit more responisblity! They're always the ones getting involved in accidents, and they lane change recklessly, and now this! What the hell!!!
Is going to call the company to complain later~

Wow had another day of mahjong. This Chinese New Year, I've already played more than 5 times! My all time favourite game! Anyway won $10 from this game. Was pretty happy with myself. Usually I lose all the time, but this year I'm quite lucky. Winning most of the time. Yeah yeah yeah.

Was really hoping to get more crazy mahjong khakis so that I can play on weekends and earn some extra cash!

This week has been extremely horrid. The bosses are coming at me practically everyday. I really dunno what to do to please them. I feel so horrible. Now the manager also wants to talk to me! I mean, if you wanna me to go, just let me know. I'll go without any questions asked. I mean I'm being scolded for not being enthu and not taking initiative. What the hell is wrong with me or the management? Am I really being too slack or are they just picking on me. I swear to God that this entire week, I've been super productive. I'm not slacking any single second. What else are they not happy with? Me? Just sack me lah. Don't breathe down on me every single day. It's so hard to work in places like that. I'm not complaining. All I'm saying is that if you guys do not like my attitude or working style, fire me instantly! I dun need to be tolerated!