雪人の宅

It's pretty scary. HE told me that HE's been referred to a specialist by a GP. I probed further & HE said that HE's going to see a psycharist. Man, what have I done to him? I really dunno what to do. Part of me feels extremely guilty but the other part of me knows that I've already fallen for another man. I've thought through it myself. Some people may see me as a slut but personally I just can't bring myself to love 2 persons at the same time. Hence the moment I've decided on him, I have to give up HIM. That's as simple as that. I just can't have 2 persons in my heart.

I know I've fallen deeply in love with him. HE kept telling me that he's not for me and that eventually I'll be extremely hurt. HE says that I'm psychoing myself that he's the one for me. HE may be right, but right now, I just wanna spend all my time with him. I feel so delighted when I see him, even a glimpse will brighten up my day instantly. That's how I feel now. I may really be hurt & regret in the future but right now, I just wanna follow my gut feelings. I love him.