15 January

15 January - a new date for me to remember.

Steve's, Vernice's birthday, as well as Desmond's wedding date.

I can't really believe that he's a married man now. I mean, I should be happy for him that he's moved on, but I can't really accept the fact that he's settled down, in a marital relationship!!!

He seemed blissful though, my safety net is gone. Actually since he left for BJ, I have not really heard from him. He was always there for me, even throughout my 3rd relationship. I guess I should say he's my first love, since I don't really recognise Fabian. So I guess it's harder to let go for him. I always feel that I can depend on him and fall back on him should I need anything. Of course, that was a selfish thought from me. I mean he deserves his own happiness and life. He shouldn't be hanging on to things that are of the past. So I guess this is it!

Kyochi - all the best! Blessed marriage! I wish you happiness in all that you do~